Streamers & Fairy Lights

It creeps up from the back of your head to the forefront of your mind, the idea.  You try and pin it down on paper but it scarpers.  You try again, it evades.  Again, and it vamooses.  

You manage a semblance of thing plucked from a stray cloud of silver lining but it is far removed from what you glimpsed.  An abstract configuring, an ink-bleed, paint-scraped, notion of the thing.  A sister thing, a cousin thing of the original platonic idea.  Tis a two-dimensional face of the dodecahedron.  Just one angle of the tetrahedron.  It’s Pythagoras hiding behind a curtain, for he was rumoured to be so good-looking, he didn’t want to distract anyone, wanted to be appreciated for his brains only.  And he was.  Go, Pythagoras.

Sometimes devils wear an angel’s face.  Cause they’re tricksters, see.  They would turn it all round on you in a jiffy.  Don’t be fooled by cherubs, they’re full of it.  Stick them on the tree and forget about them.  Fairy lights make it all look pretty anyway.

But you’re right, of course, the reverse is also true.  Some fiends are angels hidden.  To smoke out the legit devils.  Traitorous in a good way.  Just look what happened to Snape.  Some revelations are posthumous.  It’s the riddler’s dark joke.  

And isn’t it true that humdrum is happiness after a Kansas whirlwind of upside-down?  You couldn’t write a typical verse after that ever again.  Then some days, you’d release firecrackers into the open air of the yawning plains just to add some freak normal to your humdrum, cause twisters were your normal for so long.

© N Nazir 2022

Written for Shay’s Word Garden, where we are given inspiration with a word list taken from lyrics of songs by The Smiths. Words used: devil, joke, humdrum, typical, verse.

There are so many Smiths and Morrissey songs I love but I’ve listened to them a bit too much over the years that I can’t any more. But here’s one I enjoyed revisiting today. I’m Not Sorry from Morrissey’s 2005 You are the Quarry album. It’s a great live version, I just love it. May you lend it your ears awhile.

25 thoughts on “Streamers & Fairy Lights

  1. Oh, so good! “t’s Pythagoras hiding behind a curtain, for he was rumoured to be so good-looking, he didn’t want to distract anyone,” what a great line and image and way to triangulate our thinking!!

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    1. Ha ha, thank you, qbit! Someone told me that about Pythagoras many years ago and it stuck in my head and popped up just as I was writing. I’ve no idea if it’s true but I’d like it to be true! 😀

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  2. Reading it again for sheer pleasure. And this: “Then some days, you’d release firecrackers into the open air of the yawning plains just to add some freak normal to your humdrum, cause twisters were your normal for so long.” Flipping great.

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  3. Hey Sunra! So glad to see you turn up at the Listl I was feeling a little dejected that there were only 4 of us this time. Now five, and every one a star, yes? 🙂

    I have that “You Are The Quarry” on cd, which should tell you I got it when it came out. Speaking of coming out, I had a friend who was doing exactly that at the time, and when I played “All The Lazy Dykes’ for her, she adopted it as her theme song. Gosh, I haven’t played that in forever.

    I love what you wrote, woman! The first section makes me think about when I dream something or come up with something while I’m dozing. I know i have to wake up and get some of it down while it’s fresh or lose it. Sometimes “in the morning, stanzas of gibberish” as Allen Ginsberg wrote, but sometimes it turns out well, those poems from the unguarded mind.

    The latter section hit home for me tonight. Sometimes it is hard to know what to do in a situation. I can have every intention of being an angel, and say or do something devilish without intending it. (When I intend deviltry, it’s not so ambiguous lol) I think I ran over someone’s feelings with my little armored tank, such as a lady may drive of an afternoon. Now I’m trying to suss out whether I’m angel or devil. Both, it seems. Just as your poem suggests. Meanwhile, I’m still thinkin’…

    Thanks for adding this cool post for the List!

    –Shay

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    1. Thanks for this epic comment, Shay! Really glad you like it! 🙂 “Poems from the unguarded mind,” I like that. You describe it very well. I’m trying to write more like that otherwise I get writer’s block. Definitely need to read more Allan Ginsberg. I still haven’t read his Howl piece in full yet. I know, I know, I must rectify this immediately!

      I guess we’re both angels and devils, aren’t we? One more than the other at times, hopefully more angel? But whatever you are, this is hilarious: “I think I ran over someone’s feelings with my little armored tank, such as a lady may drive of an afternoon.” 😀 😀

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  4. THis is a fascinating compilation of ideas. I love the idea of trying to get soemthing on paper and it only being one of three dimensions. I heard somewhere recently – oh i know it was on the Elizabeth Day podcast I like – that most writers think their novel will be an amazing fairy tale castle but in the end they have to be satisfied with a very serviceable garden shed. 🤣. Love it.

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    1. Thanks so much, Worms! 🙂 I’ve heard that too somewhere, about the writer’s vision not quite translating. Artists too have the same problem. There’s a lot to be said for a serviceable garden shed though. I’m all for the shed. Must check out Elizabeth Day, never heard of her.

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  5. This is so fascinating, Sunra. I thought I had already replied so if this doubles up know that WP has tricked me somehow. I love the idea of trying to articulate a thought but you only get to see one dimension of it when you get it on paper. Yes! I did already reply. I remember talking about the Elizabeth Day podcast that I like and how one of the writers on there said she planned her novel to be an amazing fairy tale castle but in reality it emerged as a very serviceable garden shed. Ha ha! I love that image.

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    1. Peter, that is so lovely of you to say and I’m so glad you felt that way ❤ Thank you for your kind words. I know you were in the army so I can imagine that the last section perhaps resonated with you?

      Thanks for the link, that was really interesting! He is quite a mysterious figure. Someone once told me he didn't like to be seen and would often converse with people from behind a curtain because he wanted to be respected for his work and not his beauty but I have no idea where they got this information or if it's true! But it stuck in my head ever since because it made him sound like some kind of wizard or something! 😀

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  6. Love the ending! And I’ve certainly put the hours in listening to Morrissey.

    Then some days, you’d release firecrackers into the open air of the yawning plains just to add some freak normal to your humdrum, cause twisters were your normal for so long.

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    1. Thank you, Bob! Really glad you like the ending, I wasn’t sure it would translate so I’m pleased it did.

      I know, right? I think everyone listened to Morrissey. His music – or rather, The Smiths moreso – seems to stand the test of time cause it’s so original and surprising.

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  7. Margaret Schaff Bednar

    Love the flip of sometimes fiends are angels and “Kansas whirlwind of upside down” – what a creative reference line! I love all the comments above and add me to your list of admirers.

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  8. phillip woodruff

    an excellent read! i don’t know what i can say that hasn’t been said already about this piece. that second paragraph is ecellent, very powerful statement there.

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